Sometimes I can't tell the difference between being happy or manic. I have something coursing through my veins and should be able to see if for what I'm told it is but it's hard to not just chalk it up to feeling good and giving myself permission for feeling good.

Without doctors I would consider myself more sane than I do with them but I'm not sure that's reality. Or at least not the reality of others. It's confusing....I will give you that.