So I've been okayish for the past few days, which for me is a miracle, but I can't be happy, because usually I take 1 step forward, then 10 steps back. I'm basically waiting to crash and burn once again. History has proven this true especially for the last 2 years. Now the meds I've been taking could be causing an issue with my eyes, and I can't say I'm surprised, things never seem to go my way. I don't even have the energy to be angry anymore, I basically have no idea what's going on with my illness, my life in general. I'm frustrated but what do I do? It's like I've totally lost control of my life, and I don't have the energy to give a f**k. I just need someone to say it will be okay, even though I know it's a lie.