I don't know all I keep thinking is how to keep it together til fri and pass her over that letter. I told her about a thing I wrote about my mum and then I ripped it up and she said I should of given it to her to read then I could rip it up there so I'm gonna let her read it then I can rip it up and that will hopefully help with my anxiety as I can focus on that and then I don't know what to do after that I guess it depends on her reaction