Ugh - I'm starting to freak out.

I found a new, really interesting, potential T. He's got lots of neat qualities, and looks (online) like somebody that I'd actually enjoy talking to. He's from France (I studied French in school and have been trying to keep it up), he studied drama at one point (ooh! Fun! I took an acting class and wanted to write for TV!), and he works in some sort of "ego-friendly" way (I can't remember the exact way that he described it.)

He also has DBT experience, works with adults changing careers (something I need), and seems to have some possible experience with more serious stuff.

The downside - he's only been licensed for 3 years. I think he must have changed careers, because (if I read correctly) he's in his mid-40s now, but the lack of experience makes me a tiny bit nervous.

Anyway, I usually spend a lot of time trying to decide if I should go or not, and reading everything that I can online about a T... I did read some of his websites (and double checked the state website to make sure he is really licensed!), but I really *just* found him the other day.

My appointment is late tomorrow afternoon. I am so nervous now. I'm not sure where to even start. It's been a crappy year, I left my last T feeling so incredibly disappointed (he shut down me talking about what was going on my life because it wasn't important enough to spend time on, according to him), and I just feel like... my life is not working on so many levels.

I hope we connect. I hope he's better able to understand me than my last T. I hope he has that type of personality that makes me feel comfortable and able to open up. I hope he's smart, and has good ideas, and is able to be on my side. I hope he isn't more interested in how my brother is doing, or in being a tough T and asking hard questions rather than showing support and empathy. I hope he's not TOO empathic and gushy. And, I hope maybe I can get away with sneaking a minute or two of french practice in, every once in awhile!

And, if he's not the right T... please, I hope that I can tell that in the first session and not waste my time and money trying to make it work!!!

Fingers crossed. Deep breaths.