I don't know what to say. but would like to help you. I am not a doc or t but i think you should see one. i myself feel numb and sureal sometimes too. I suffer depression which i think causes a type of psychosis where i feel like i'm not my true self if you can relate.I also am schitzophrenic and PTSD. I've had a long hard battle with all these things and i say the sooner the better if you get help. Good luck