I live in a pretty quiet area and last night at midnight there was a gun shot right out side my house. I've grown up around guns, everyone in my family know how to shoot including me, and I was taught at an indoor shooting range. So i know the sound well. First there was the bang, and then there was the richtoshay sound against the houses and I hit the floor out of instinct. I had a moment's indecision and then called 911. I couldn't even move off the floor, it was like my body was running with out me. My cat was freaked out and watching a sound in the hallway which had me even more freaked out and I stayed on the floor until the cops showed up in the driveway. I like in a complex where everyone shares walls, so this could have come from anywhere or even the street below and the next complex down. Course, the cops came to the door and i couldn't have looked younger and more niive; wearing a floor length charcol skirt, white top, dusky plum cartican and my long hair down, hugging myself, i probably looked 12 instead of 30 and i get the feeling the cops probably thought i heard a car backfire and didn't know the difference. But i couldn't get my voice to tell them what I am typing here. They looked around outside and down into the next street, while i watched from the window and started shaking and crying! I dunno - I didn't expect any of these reactions, since I am used to guns. I'm amazed that my body automatically took cover. And amazed that i was so shaken by it. The cops left and I was more scared. I didn't want them to leave. I went back upstairs and jumped at every noise - my cat going back to sleep, my fish jumping in their bowls. Started crying again and was trying to get myself to call a crisis line so i could just talk to *someone*. But, really the crisis was over and I didn't feel my upset was worth calling about. THis morning, i called my mom (usual roommate -spending the night with her b/f) and started shaking all over again.
All this came after an already emotional draining night.
Now I have to get ready for work. Kiya