I try to live my life one day at a time but it scares me and depresses me to think that my brain is deteriorating day by day. I am a very smart person with a high I.Q. But some would not know this from speaking with me. For the last couple of years I have started to get confused when I am talking to someone in my mind I know exactly what I need to say but unfortunately at times it seams like my mind and my mouth are not communicating with each other. I read up on this and from what I found it is just the way some people with bipolar are. I am worried that in not such a short time my brain will basically be mush. I have been tested for Alzheimer's and Dementia and they said I did not have it.
I am just depressed today and this has me worried about my future. You know one day I am in Law School with a promising career ahead of me to not being able to concentrate in school to sitting in my recliner collection SSDI. I am 43. At least I have a great wife. I am just so sad that I never accomplished the goals I wanted.

Sorry I got sidetracked