My mind keeps 'switching' me from a dark place where I am obsessed with revenge and SI, to a euphoric mania where I feel invincible, powerful and unmoved by the trauma. My doctor says it is my brains way of dissociating out of the dark place to keep me safe. Problem is that I cannot be discharge while manic or in the mixed-dark place. Bipolar is switching fast but it seems to be doing so to keep me safe. Any others with BP and PTSD experienced this? How do I merge the two states safely and stabilise? I just want to be well enough to go home - I am IP right now and have been for 12 days.