I'm BP and since I'm newly sober, I've become a huge *****! And about being sensitive to sound, I get that way when I'm getting manic. [trigger] last time this happened, my cockatoo kept screeching throughout the house and I got so irritated I had thoughts of harming her. I was scared to be alone with my pets. I got into pdoc early and an increase in seroquel put me on my *** and brought me down, while sleeping for two days lol. And even when I am stable, I'm a asshole lol. When I'm stable I'm bored and my moods are flat. No smiling, or crying. I just have to settle with that I guess.

But MM, I've read your last few threads and I do think going back on meds will be good for you. It sounds like you're in denial which often happens with most BP people. Please get in to see your nurse and find a pdoc. I really hope you feel better. I know exactly what you're going through. Look, I don't do anything. I sit in front of the tv on my phone so if you ever need to PM to talk about anything please feel free to reach out.