...I'm struggling. I know in winter when all the beautiful greens fade to browns and the weather becomes cold that I get this way.

I am having trouble accepting my shortfalls. I couldn't manage to get out of bed this morning. I fell asleep after a morning coffee and slept on and off for 11 hours. Ugh.

I've started taking fish oil and vitamin d supplements... and I exercise 3-4x a week (but even that is a struggle...)

My thoughts are slow, my concentration is worsening. My memory- what memory. I can't remember what I ate most days. It causes issues in my relationship.

I'm afraid.. the last few winters have been rough.. and last winter in January I slept and worked... but ended up in the hospital for psychosis and depression.

I'm currently taking 50mg Seroquel and 2mg of abilify. I have a psychiatrist but he's part of public health so I see him about ever 2-3 months. No other psychiatrist would take me.

I don't want to fall so low that I can't function and our finances go down the toilet because I'm incapacitated again.

**** this. I hate depression.

Any advice?