all i want is to be able to function each day... it's not even my issues which are consuming me, although they do to some degree... it's more the therapy process and relationship which eats at me. My issues affected me, of course, but i ended up in therapy to deal with a huge life crisis and decided that now would be a good time to tackle the longer term patterns, etc. They were affecting my life overall, but not the daily functioning. Now i still have the overall junk *and* interruption in my daily functioning.

i have a high level of pressure on me in my life. i have high standards and with good reason, without them i am facing disaster. Now is the time i have to lay groundwork for later. i cannot afford to mess this up.

it's gotten so bad, so intense that i am considering giving up therapy, even though i think the hard work might pay off for me. i just can't lose everything in the process... and ironically, i did i wouldn't be able to finish therapy anyway