I know I feel like a leech here just taking advice rather than giving it, but i'm not a really socially-adept person.. so again im sorry..

Anyways I am on my second week of cymbalta. The first day I noticed a dramatic change with my irritability completely gone. I have no anger, I have no extreme mood swings like I did before. The only problem now is that I feel like I need to cry a lot more, and like its easier to cry(before I actually hurt myself to cause me to cry in emotional situations).

I am getting closer to my boyfriend but he seems like he is getting more distant. I know it is just a relative feeling, because I feel so much different and he hasn't changed. I have hurt him in the past and he promised me that he would never be as close as he was in the beginning, and I sort of deserve it. (this is just a rant)..

Main Question:
I don't know whether I should be unmedicated and have irritability and anger, but not really care if my bf is distant avoiding that pain.. or taking the medications and feeling the pain of knowing him being distant and annoyed with me when I try to get closer.

He has given me so much in the past and I have taken, so I don't know if he needs time to forgive me and me to prove he can trust me or if he will never forgive me and I should move on. We have talked and all he has said is he doesn't think he can ever get that close to me again.. And more than ever I need someone that will but I do not want to lose him because I love him..(another rant)