Gonna try to make this short. Tired and stressed.

I have a seizure disorder and maybe this is the wrong place for this but it is purely in dreams, I think. It is not medication withdrawal symptom because I had one of these early this year long before I started tapering.

I get auras, maybe partial seizures, no one seems to know. What they are is I go blind, get a feeling of terror and get flashes of dreams I have had before. I call them seizure dreams, I know if I remember them while awake it will trigger the auras, which lead to convulsive seizures. Scents that I remember but can't place also trigger auras.

I was having a dream, a normal one. Call that dream #1. In that dream, I fell asleep. Which is odd since I am almost always an observer and not a part of my dreams. Even my subconscious knows I suck. I dreamt inside that dream(#2). That dream was a seizure dream. So in dream #2 I had an aura. A bad one. In dream #1, I had a seizure, but it couldn't be because grand mals knock me straight out. In real life, I think, I felt the effects of both things but I didn't really have them, maybe. Maybe I did but it really messed with my mind and body.

I don't know if even have a question other than what the ??? I don't even know if it makes sense but what is it if anyone knows?

I haven't had a grand mal since 1995 because I get plenty of warning with auras(takes about 8 hours after my first aura before I am on the floor, the auras are like contractions, they get closer and closer over that time) and I can get my brain shut down, talk about an easy task. I haven't had a seriously scary aura since 2008. I do get much smaller and easier to manage ones a few times a year. This new thing is really new. I never had this before this year and my psychosis is pretty new as well, less than 2 years. Is that it? It is so easy to blame stuff on psychosis, even when it doesn't deserve it, like the unrelated(I think) sleep paralysis.