Hi, I am a 14-year-old girl who suffers from schizophrenia and depression. It's been hard to get help lately and I'm not sure I believe that I have it, the voices tell me their wrong. But anyway, I do SI a lot for two reasons, when my life is going bad it is a release of pain, I feel like I'm getting back at everybody but at the same time punishing myself for being the things people call me. I also SI because the voices tell me to, they say they will hurt me or my family if I don't and will make my life miserable. I just wanted to know if anyone else releases pain like I do or just to kill?