Yes I do that too. And I've found the best thing I can do when I'm pushing t away and don't want to go to a session is to make myself go anyway and talk about those feelings. Not saying it's easy, because of course it's not (I cry and sigh a lot and hem and haw over getting the words out but eventually I do, and it DOES get easier each time it comes up) but it's always been for the best in my case.