Whenever I feel really low, my mind goes to how much of a failure my life has been so far. Today is no exception.

So I'm 24, turning 25 in March. I've been hospitalized 13 times since the age of 16, the longest hospitalization lasting for over 3 months.

I applied for disability at age 18 and was accepted the first attempt, and I've been on it ever since. I've worked a few jobs and currently have a part-time cleaning job working only 9 hours a week.

I've attempted post-secondary school twice and had to withdraw on both occasions due to mental health issues. Even if I wanted to go back, I can't until I pay off my student loans. This will take several years.

I have no friends. I do have a boyfriend but the relationship can be difficult. He has issues of his own, especially anger, that affect me greatly. I love him but these outbursts take their toll.

My past high school friends are all successful now, either with good jobs or continuing their education. Back in high school I could have done anything I set my mind to. I was a very smart individual with really good grades.

I have nothing going for me. Life is hopeless. At 24 I already feel like my life is over and I'm stuck.