Prada, i don't think i can tell you what you should do.. it sounds like a choice of evils? or should i say goods?

on one hand you might be closer with bf, on the other you could find easier peace... i think i would go with self-peace before something that satisfies another only because your own state of mind is central to everything you do.. but i guess you can find a level of peace either way... physical health may be more important than relationship health...

i guess i would always suggest that putting anyone, bf or other before myself is a way of hurting us both in the end...