Sometimes when a session begins my mind blanks out. I used to freak out and get nervous but now I try to breathe and see where I am. The more relaxed I can make myself the more I can tap into whatever needs to come up. As Echoes said, there is always something.

If, when you do this, all that comes up is your fear of T attacking then that is the thought to explore with T.

This feels related to your prior post on saying random things to T and not being able to "have" the time, but feeling obliged to waste it.

Maybe you can't have the time because you are afraid T will take it? Or already took it?
Or will hurt you when you let her know you have it? Does it leave you exposed somehow?

(((hugs)))