I officially ended my relationship yesterday. It was really emotional and hard for me to break it to him. We've been through a lot of ups and downs, but I came to the conclusion it was not a healthy relationship for me. I've been hurt too many times. I do wish him the best. He's hurt, but was understanding.

There's no one left to blame anymore...I just need to do what's best for myself. I want him to be happy too and wish him the best. I hate hurting people (even when I'm hurting) though. I need to be alone right now since I find it too stressful to keep up with a relationship, My swings between mania and depression are not completely under control.

I don't feel I can be there for anyone right now in a relationship. I need to be alone for a while to work on myself. It took me a lot to finally make this move, since I do care about him, even though I've been hurt by him....but I have to be true to myself.