I feel "stuck" a lot and get nervous when others ask me about what I want in the future. If I do not take it one day at a time, I am not able to cope well at all. Sometimes I wish I had certain things that people around me have....those who are not affected with BP when I compare certain aspects of my life to theirs. I know I shouldn't compare though.
I can't afford my own place any longer, and feel I went backwards in different ways since I had to give up being completely independent. I'm not as self-sufficient as I'd like to be and wonder if things will get better or worse. So yes, I do get depressed when I think about the future.