I definitely wish I could skip Christmas. When my dad died twenty years ago it lost all happiness for me. When My son was born I started to really like Christmas and making it special for him. Then my husband died. Now it's just a slap in the face. But I have to put on a show for my son. He wants to put up the tree the day after thanksgiving. I just can't even fathom doing everything I'm supposed to do for the holidays. The baking that I usually do was abandoned last year because I couldn't handle it. That was the first Christmas without my husband. But I want to give my son good memories so I'm going to try to step it up this year.
I also hate hate hate winter and always get depressed. Last year it was a severe three month depression that ended with me taking leave from work and doing ect treatments again. I've been stable since then for the most part so I'm hoping to skip the depression this year. But I wish I could fast forward to April. I hate the cold and the dark. And snow. **** snow. Now that my husband can't help me shovel it's a real pain in my ***. But again my son loves snow and is very excited, though we probably won't see any till the new year.
I just hate this time of year. Christmas cheer my ***.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real?
-Albus Dumbledore
That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it
f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have.
-Garden State
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