This is a tough scenario, and there is no easy way to get through it. You just have to take your life one day at a time, and let yourself heal. None of us know how to handle a breakup from someone we deeply love and are attached to. It's like any other grief we face; you just keep going, and try to remember that there are still things in life worth living for.

Week by week, month by month, very slowly, you will start to feel better. You will start to discover yourself, and the things you love to do on your own. The progress will be very slow, and you won't ever think you will feel better, but you will.

You won't like to hear this, but you are still very young. People do grow and change, especially in their teens and 20's. Your ex sounds like he is going to struggle quite a bit with substance abuse (drinking). That's going to be a hard road for him to go down, and you might be better off not going down it with him.

This is so hard, and I feel very much for you. I have been through this. You can get through it too. Hang in there.