I've never really felt the urge to look up any therapists, former or current, but if you are not experiencing good therapy right now, I imagine you're looking for the connection you maybe once felt? I've never terminated with a therapist I felt a connection to, but I imagine if I did I would be doing the same thing. Definitely with my therapist now, I'd feel some need for connection with her.

I think the right therapist is out there, you just need to keep trying, as hard as it is!