To outsiders looking in this can appear to be laziness. When I was depressed, I used to call and consider myself lazy. But depression isn't about wanting to watch netflix all day or wanting to get a few more hours of cozy sleep. At least not for me. It's a mind and body stealing thief which tries to get me to commit murder upon myself. I watch Netflix when depressed but I don't understand the show and would need to rewind it and watch 5-6 times just to understand some basics but I never rewind. It's just background noise to go along with all the thoughts of hopelessness which pull and keep me under the depression waters and zaps me from any interest in living at all. I used to think this was normal and that all people felt like this if they were honest so I hated myself more and wished for my own death more which didn't get me anywhere. Guess what, depression (real clinical depression and hating yourself and fantasizing about ending it all are not normal) they should not be accepted as facts of life and people told to get over themselves and stop being so selfish. This is some people's reactions but they are incredibly ignorant and non helpful and better off staying away from depressed people.
Some people stay in bed with the covers over their head, some people play games obsessively and some people plot their own death. I don't look at outside behaviors when accessing someone's laziness, I look at what's going on in the insides of the person. This is where the truth lies. I know a few genuinely lazy people (no depression, just lazy) and I know a few over achievers and sometimes the lazy person is much nicer, more kind and helpful believe it or not. We can judge ourselves and others anyway we see fit. Whatever makes us comfortable. I've been through so many types of depression from dysphoric delusional to non verbal catatonic. None of them were built on the stuff true laziness is made of and calling myself lazy never helped anything. If calling yourself lazy helps you (as it does for some people) then I'm happy for you.
(((Hugs to anyone who is depressed whether they are in bed watching Netflix or at work saving the whales)))
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