Well, I learned something. My husband isn't like my family. Once I assured him that I wasn't accusing him of anything and that I needed his help and perspective, I got it.

First, he was feeling awkward with my sister. Since her breakdown, he doesn't know how to talk to her.

Second, I have no idea what's going on in her head and may never know, but it doesn't matter because,

Third, my husband promises to be aware that a sibling rivalry may be going on. And if I let him know (we haven't worked out the signal yet) he will do whatever I need to reassure me that we're ok and a couple.

I was so afraid to do this and yet, I feel closer than ever. I wish I could just boil my brain and heart and disinfect them from all the wrong notions. I become paranoid so easily. Life is such a challenge. But possible, I guess.

Thank you for all the support. I'm convinced that that is what gave me the strength to sort through this. I love you (((psychcentral))).