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Originally Posted by ruh roh
Hi trailrunner, I like what Luce said about a part peeking out and being disoriented because of the time lapse and change in chair. Maybe it's not so much what you had been discussing with your therapist a year ago, so much as what had been happening just prior to feeling off during this recent session. Something triggered the part to come forward, either at the beginning of session o just prior (if you entered his office feeling off). At least, that's how my therapist approaches things--identifying triggers for each one of us, working with that triggering material, and finding ways to calm the one that's come forward. But if it feels like knowing what you were talking about a year ago in your therapist's office will help, then go that route. It may turn out to be the same trigger and will confirm things. (I hope this makes sense--if not, disregard.)
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Yes! What you see makes absolute sense to me. When I walked in his office there was a curious feeling of "something's not right here" it wasn't a anxious panic feeling. Once we figured out what was "off" I think I felt a relaxed feeling, and it feels like I talked very freely. I didn't think any more of it, until I got home. Then, I just kept seeing the chair he was sitting in, in my mind. It kept building intensity and I went in search of an explanation to what I couldn't figure out.
My mind kept going to state dependent memory because I kept hearing him tell me that it was over a year ago that he had switched chairs. That doesn't make any connection now. I think that was a false lead.
I think you are right too about the part of me that was feeling disoriented. I'm thinking a conversation with my mom triggered me and that part came forward then, and stayed there through my session time. That would make sense. I guess when that part stepped back, whatever part was there, tried to figure it out and freaked out because it didn't understand. There is a part of me that is very analytical and does not like not being able to figure something out. That part is prone to "flip outs"
See! That makes complete sense. I'm so glad you guys are here! It wouldn't make complete sense to anyone else around
here.
It still feels a little weird, but there is also a feeling of some understanding.