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Originally Posted by avlady
i think anxiety is the worst feeling i've ever felt, it is a sickness for me which i almost grew out of now that i'm older and on the right meds which took 30 years to get on the right ones. i am on clozapine which can be dangerous, bu ii get my bloods drawn every month to be regulated on them. before them i was a mess mentally. now i can say i can get through at least half the day without much problem some days.
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I never found any medication which helped with my anxiety. The anxiety stemmed from real childhood experiences, which I think I perceived as threats to my life, which I could not handle. (Parents do sometimes kill their children, you know.) So no medications got to those roots.
Yes, my anxiety, and the mishandling of it by others, was the most frightening, horrible experience of my life. Not that it is entirely gone now.
Only slow learning about my own innards through mindfulness (which I developed largely on my own) has proved useful. I never got sufficient help from medications or from psychotherapists either. Few people are willing to probe enough beneath the surface appearances. Some experiences here, and from reading have been the most beneficial external factors. Along with not being treated as a menace by everyone even when they did not fully understand.