Thanks atisketatasket and growlycat!

And thanks Scarlet. That's my fear. That, and maybe he's "scared" (it didn't come off as judgemental, although I guess it is, technically, a judgement) because he hasn't done enough of his own work to develop that inner sense of solid-ness that lets him stay calm and feel OK, even when a client is pushing buttons. It worries, because I think I *am* really hard on Ts - not intentionally at all, but like I've said, I've had Ts kick me out, made one cry, and my most recent one has told me that I'm very challenging (and that's fine with him, he says that he likes a challenge!).

I want to give him a try anyway, b/c he feels like a better match for me than anyone else that I've ever seen!

BUT - guess what! He hasn't emailed me times for the next appointment yet! He sent me a receipt for the payment, which is great. I replied this morning saying thanks, and asking him to let me know when his schedule is settled for next week if he has time to see me, and if not, what times would work for the following week.

He might be still juggling things, he said he had a few people who were changing times and canceling next week. But... ugh. It feels like, just maybe, he had second thoughts about me, and is choosing to not respond at all (rather than email me and tell me that he thinks it's a bad fit).

It's frustrating, b/c I assume this is part of the attachment stuff that he doesn't want to deal with. But... ugh. Frustrating. And, honestly, this would be very in line with my previous T experiences!