hopealwayz - Do you have a new therapist that you can talk? Are you looking for one?

It sounds incredibly painful, but Lolagrace is right, you have to stop contacting him. It sounds like you're setting yourself up for legal issues (especially as he's using the word "harassment"). He seems to be very clear that there is no chance of him accepting you as a client again - it sucks, it's painful, but the best way to move on is to find someone new who you can talk to and who can give you the care you deserve!