Well it isn't unusual to not know how we feel. And tests are just tests.
How do you feel about what the test says?
In my experience anxiety and depression go hand-in-hand and one can be a relief of the other. When I've had many days of high anxiety, a sudden drop into depression is relieving.. at first anyway.
Tell her it irritates you that she keeps asking if you are angry. Ask her why she feels she needs to ask you so often. Perhaps she's sensing it and you're denying it? I do this and several visits ago I began with a statement that I was annoyed about something, then in mid-session she asked me if I was annoyed and I said No. She asked several times and I said No. She asked if I was annoyed with her.. lol... and I wasn't aware of being annoyed with her, so I denied it again. On the way home, more relaxed, I realized that I was the one who stated I was annoyed in the first place!! Then I denied it when asked outright. So, I am not very aware and also I still have trust issues with her, both reasons why I denied being annoyed. Also I am terribly afraid of anger, particularly my own. If I let a little out it will become overwhelming and explode, filling up the whole room! So, to defend against that.. I deny it.
Just some thoughts and you'll have thoughts of your own about how it works with you.
It's good that you're aware of 'something' going on there and questioning it! The exploration has begun in your mind. Now take it into therapy with you and see what else is there about it to explore with her.
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