So I got to see my son play t-ball today and then went and hung out with the kids while my wife went and got her nails done. When she got back she was sitting on the couch watching cartoons with us and she started falling asleep. I moved over next to her on the couch and started holding her hand. It was the first time I had held her hand in over three months. She woke up and went in and laid down on the bed. When it started to get around five I decided I better figure out what was going to be for dinner so I did the one thing every man does. I ordered pizza. While she was waking up I told her to just stay in bed and I would take care of dinner. I brought her a plate with pizza on it and her tea. I then went and got the kids dinner ready and ate something myself too. When I was done I collected everyones plates and started to wash dishes. After I was done washing dishes I went back into our bedroom and grabbed some lotion and started rubbing her feet. She told me I did not need to do that, and I said I know I don't have too, I want too. After the kids went to bed I left the house again. This saddens me so very much. I know I am different, but she does not see it. She only sees with the eyes she saw with in the past. But I am working through it and one day things will be right. Oh yeah I bought her one single red rose today and left it with a note that I wrote telling her about some things I realize I had done in the past and how I have changed them. Sorry for letting loose, it just makes me feel better to get things off my chest. Thank you!