I never sleep without having nightmares or at least weird dreams. I still dreaming when I only take a short nap. It has been like this for years, maybe 10 years or more.

Those nightmares most of time including sleep paralyze and I would (finally) wake up screaming. Sometimes it takes a few sessions of waking-screaming-falling asleep again-waking-screaming again before I fully wake up.

Those nightmares were mostly about evil creatures trying to get me while I fight them for my life. Name all urban legends I think I have seen them.

What concern me a lot is the weird dreams though. Nightmares only caused me some fears, anxiety, and panic that will fade away in a few hours. But the weird dreams left me feeling lonely. I always feel lonely and after a weird dream it gets worse.

The recurrent weird dreams always have the same plot, though the stories might be varied. It is always about someone I don't recognize who, but in my dreams I know that I had lost them in past. In dream I always tried to alter the ending but always failed. I lost them anyway no matter how hard I tried.

I am not sure whether my psychosis plays in this but those dreams feel more real than real world while real world feels like dream.

Sleep never make me feel fresh after that. No matter how much I sleep I still feel tired. Take hours until I finally have some energy to do things.

Any insight about this will be much appreciated. Thank you in advance.