I don't want to put more weight on you by saying this, but let me just say that it wouldn't be better for me. Who else will understand all of my Twenty One Pilots phuns?
I wish people could allow me to do it, too, but they won't and don't plan on changing. I guess, in this sort of case, we have to be the ones who sacrifice for the chance we can get better.
Other than that, anything else I'd say would be hypocritical and/or ignorant. If you need to talk, I'm always here for you.