Last night I attempted to do a runner from the hospital I am in due to high SI. I was very agitated, distraught, motivated and compelled. Thankfully, a nurse stopped me and talked to me. I broke down and wept more than I have in many months.

Now I am on close observations but feel great again, so it is weird. Maybe the meds are bringing me back up. IDK.

See my pdoc round lunch so will be able to talk about it then. I want to go to the beach with my parents tomorrow so I am hoping to get leave to do so or I will go stir crazy in here. No SI today. back to happy. My mind is extraordinary.