Hello, allautumn. Congratulations on no drinking since Saturday! I'm giving aa another try even though I choke on the higher power stuff and giving over ownership of the disease to it/her/him. I'm not a religious person. I'm kinda sort of spiritual in that I believe in a connection between living things (like people and the earth we live on). But I'm going to the meetings anyway - going through the motions at this point. It's keeping me from getting drunk. So in that sense it works. I went through aa 4 years ago. Got sober, got a sponsor, made the coffee, stopped seeing friends who drank. I reached 9 months of sobriety, what a surprise. That's what they call a dry drunk. I'd rather be a dry drunk than be blacked out on martinis, tho.

I see a lot of problems with aa that I haven't reconciled myself with. For example, I haven't found a meeting amenable to acknowledging medical treatment for mental health problems, or therapy. I don't even bring up that I've got those "issues" because of the antagonism I've heard expressed.

So what I figure is that for now, I will take from the program what works for me now. For now I'll keep going to meetings to keep from drinking.

partlycloudy