I think its psychological for him right now. He's really had a rough time turning 40. I really think its all in his head. And I think if I were more "pursuadable" it would make a big difference. I don't think he'd turn me down if I got him started. We have talked about it and he does know that I'm having a hard time with it.

He felt so bad about being sick this weekend and not being able to give me some relief that he took me to a wonderful dinner tonight. When I said that he spoils me he said he felt so bad about not being able to perform.

So I'm getting that its not about me. He's hitting a rough patch in his life and I think thats whats going on. He made his appointment for a 40 year old checkup at the doctor and thats a huge step for him, so I think he's starting to worry about his health and mortality.

I'm hoping its just a phase and that it'll pass.