You're expecting them to treat you like you're awesome when you don't seem to think that about yourself.

What about you makes you admirable? If you do nothing admirable then of course no one will think of you that way.

People aren't to be used to boost your own ego. It seems like you want to be put up on some pedestal to be worshipped.... When you're full of disdain for them?

I wish you could get yourself out of this pattern. You're jealous of every other male. You imagine all sorts of things about women and what they're thinking. You have a mixed view of thinking you're awful yet also thinking everyone else should see your brilliance. You view all positive behaviours from women towards you as fake.

Seriously it is no surprise that you're miserable. You have so many misguided beliefs and thought processes which contradict each other. Please give a new therapist a try.