I sleep with an appointment reminder card from my T (sometimes). I used to sleep with my treatment plan. I do weird things like this because thinking about T helps me to relax. I don't know why thinking about T soothes me as much as it does. Sometimes, when I get real stressed out, I miss T so much. Trying to write this is making me cry. I have complained to T about my addiction to her. She replied that there is such a thing as a positve addiction. I don't need her advice. I just need her to believe in me when I can't. I have known her for almost two years. Why am I so attached to her? I never told her about the appointment reminder card or treatment plan thing. I'm too embarassed to tell anyone about this in real life. I have an appointment reminder card in my work uniform and my practicum folder (I'm learning to be an addiction counselor). Is there anyone out there as addicted to their counselor as I am? I sometimes think of her as my inner-child's mother. I don't like to depend on others because then I have to trust them not to hurt me. Boo! Hoo!