Hey Spark cat, Sorry your so confused,keep the therapy door open, but not until your ready. The thing is, not everything fits neatly in a box, sexuality can be a bit like that. Sometimes we are just attracted to a person, regardless of gender or what society thinks is right. I think life would be a lot easier if we cared less about labels.
Don't worry of your straight or gay or someplace inbetween. Make sure you choose to be around those who treat you right, and want your happiness too. That make you feel good.
Maybe you will decide you like boys more, or girls, or neither, and that's ok too.
But there is not much point in wondering what you would have been like if it hadn't happened, because that's not something you can change.

I really hope you find what your looking for, and I wish you all the best.