I'm currently fighting with my wife in probably our worst fight yet. And that may be an overstatement because I said some pretty nasty stuff before I went into the hospital. But right now I'm actually worried. And it's not stopping me from being angry and wanting to yell at her and tell her what is in my head. I'm not even sure all of it is true or what I believe. She tells me she is hurt. Like I should stop. But I'm hurt too. She wants to be the one that tells me how I feel. What state I'm in. Like she can see every underlying thing that's going on. She wants me to document all this so she can evaluate it. Why the hell am I even here if she is the one who is going to tell me who I am. I'm not a synthetic husband. I do more around the house than her. I make more of the money than her. I am more stable! Yeah, I have a stable job, I work hard and do well, I am the one whose credit we used to buy our house. Im the one whose credit we use for anything. She has debt out the *** and she tells me that we need to save and how to be good with money and why I can't spend. Well no. That's not what she says she wants, she wants to know why I have emotions. What they are and if she needs to do something about them.

I'm just... I'm pissed off. I'm posting I. The middle of our online fight and I'm angry. This started last night not online. I want to buy a car. Not some sports car or unreasonable car. I want to buy a reliable family car. A Prius v. Used. With low miles. And she thinks it's too much because we will actually have a payment and she is scared of her job and I have to be able to provide for everyone.

I'm sure there is some here. But we actually have a therapy session today that won't be a walk in the park like normal.