Slept for almost 9 hours last night! Thank you Meds! Feeling a little groggy, it is 6.30am here, so just waiting for med time and breakfast s I can get into my day. Still agitated and anxious though but I am starting my new killer med regime today (see my signature) and have hope it will keep me safe, calm but still awake.

Last night meeting with my doctor scared me as he explained he was doing all he could to keep me out of a locked ward but if i go worse then he will have to send me there. It is not part of this great private hospital, it is a public hospital with a very bad reputation for traumatising its patients due to the fact that you are with very unwell people and that those people will try to assault you. Also the nurses don't have the time to see you and no phones or computers.

So, I will be a good girl, and take my excessive amounts of meds i hope it switches me back to stability.