First, I am sorry that I pop in and out...only when I need something, but having PD keeps me extremely involved in that Community, which is my primary community.

Lately, I have been disturbed by the fact that I have not had (or atleast not remembered dreaming) since I was a child. And having a totaly and complete block of my childhood years...well...I have had experieces in my life that I should have terrible dreams about, but I don't.

Why is this?

I should have recall dreaming about the night I walked into my home and was confronted by a man who had just broken in through a window unit air conditioner, which he had pushed through the wall so that he could acces the room. He left without hurting me, took my purse and my car.

I should have recall dreams about the car accident I had 12 years ago that took 18 months out of my life.

And why is it that anytime something significant happens to me I block it out...e.g. my recent brain surgery in June. I was compiling the expenses incurred by my family over the month immediately after the surgery and discovered that I didn't just lose a week of time, I lost the better part of a month of time.

Why does this happen?? No dreams. No recall. Was my childhood so horrible...yes...that even after all these decades I am still so excellent at blocking information? This can't be a good thing...right?

The other thing is that I am completely unemotional about most anything significant.

Why is this?

Carolyn