I am struggling emotionally with the confusion and bewilderment and pain and loss. It is still, two months on, really raw and painful. I have gone from 3 to 4 hrs a week therapy as an at risk client to zero therapy. And the centre has just left me alone after I refused the woman 55 miles away. I don't want to even be near another therapist but some days I wish I had some way of processing all of this instead of writing it out or thinking about it endlessly in my head.