You could use some therapy. You say you have no use for people unless they are feeding your ego and making you feel awesome about yourself. These are not realistic expectations to constantly have. Sometimes we need our friends to boost or cheer us up but true happiness comes from the inside. You need to learn how to validate yourself and make your own self feel awesome so you can enjoy your friends more and not use them as just an ego boost. Tell your friends how awesome they are instead of expecting them to always make you feel that way. (((Hugs)))