all I ever wanted was a normal life. I tried to forget my past abusive upbringing and raise my son in a safe home. I envisioned him getting married and having children, him going to college and having a good job. Family gatherings for special occasions like birthdays and holidays, graduations. I thought I could create that no matter what I went through. I just want a safe, loving, family life. Im not ready to give up on it but after tonight I might.