I believe I can understand what you are saying and feeling, in some way. I too, tried to undo the undoing of my childhood by wanting more and trying so hard to make it happen for for my boys. It was so very hard to try and make things good by myself. That's where I was. I'm not sure if that is where you are.

There have been times, recently, that I have wanted to walk away too. I was caught in a hard place of wanting things to be good for my boys and seeing what was happening around them doing more harm than good.

I am working with a counselor who has given me strength and has helped me build belief that I'm not where I came from.

That may have been too much to say, but your post spoke to my heart.

It may not be anything like what you are walking through, but I felt a need to share it.

Thinking of you. Please post. We are here.