Wow... ok... this is really helpful because all this time i thought it was just me who did this and that i was ... i dunno... out of it. i've been afraid to tell a T or anyone because i thought they'd think that was nuts. It feels so serious in that moment - like life really is being held in the balance. then it passes and i think "what was that!?" and don't call. But this last one, the moment didn't leave me because this time i wasn't driving (yes bridges and pulling in front of traffic are common thoughts during those times). THis was in my house and so that was why i called a friend.

Has anyone called a crisis line to deal with that? If so, how did they handle it? Was it all right?
Thanks everyone, kiya