i woke up today to the psych doctor telling me that my son will be admitted but will be moved to another psych hospital who takes his insurance. more bull ****. i will help the transition when he is moved but that is it. My body aches from being attacked and the rest of me is numb still. I am spending time with my sister and her friend today doing nothing. that will help to not be alone. my voice is raspy from screaming while being attacked. I knew he was capable of it but I didn't expect him to turn so fast. he went from "i want to use the car' to you ****ing ***** you have destroyed the universe" "give me the ****ing keys" and than physically attacking me. I will never trust him again. I love my son. I want him to get help but I will not be the one that will help him. Now he has to help himself. I can't do it anymore. Thanks everyone for your kind words and support. coming here and being able to express my pain helps me know that I at least have others who know what i am talking about.