Being/acting selfish = bad. If you have that equation and if you can take it on, that'd be a safer choice, I suppose? You may worry yourself trying to hide it, or it may empowers you to live fully. You're mortal being anyways, for me those labels are always the same, knowing that would make me remind myself of a purpose/meanings of what I am.

That would take me to the thinking of not taking morality into account, and I'd use the rest of all the knowledge and experiences I have, to come up with rational, maybe irrational decision. I'd think that your friends and families are inside of your head, that's all you know about them.

People lies all the time, about Santa for one, someone might say, "I'm your parent, I love you and I'll always be around.". I hated the untruth every since I was little, then again, would I have been cool with knowing big truth? I say yes, but it takes two to tango, you can't explain things that you don't know.

Worrying too much about others' reaction seems to me a trap that anyone could fall in. It's people's process and I respect that but I'm over with indecision in my life. That's not rational, and of course you'll get to the decision eventually. You can change your mind at any time, and you get only one shot at it.

Obviously, you'd wanna think about the logistics, and I don't think it should factor into the decision making you are asking about. I'd guess that you now have different perspectives, standing on a turning point, everything's different so you'll want to relearn the things and people around you.

I don't know what I've said all of above for, but in the end, you'll be thinking about someone you care for, that's an selfless act. Like I said, I think it's best to learn from anything, anything at all around you with the new set of eyes.

I'm sorry I'm not being concise here, the change, selfishness spins around in everyone. It's more precise to call it a selfness. And yes it is a word, I've checked. What it means to me is that the acceptance, as much understandings of who the person is, things like that weighs more, you try to be the best you can be with no regrets as long as you're breathing, this is not exactly an answer to your question but please try to believe in yourself, how, what, when to tell, the true knowledges, the higher level of knowledges are like "Oh, I've already known that.". Then you'd know what you wanna do with those, more problems like time issues will come to that person, and life continues.

A terminal illness. Live proudly if you can do that, I'm dumb and have no one, so I'm not afraid, I think it'd be best to feel that way.

By the way, I got hit by an earthquake again this morning and I was calm as cucumber, I got no one to call or nothing to grab and escape, a little before that, I was listening to some music, and the lyrics goes like "...I'm stabbing myself With a ****ing knife in the gut, while I'm wiping my butt!..."

What do you give a *bleep*? I believe it's best to be yourself and out, sorry I'm not helpful.

Takeshi