I broke up with the guy I was dating, as you know. Sunday, The day of, I went back on the dating site, because he wasn't answering his texts, and saw he was already back on there. With a picture I'd taken of him. 2 days later, I emailed him. It was stupid. But I was emotional and confused and hurting. I told him I missed him, and loved him, and wanted to make it work. He emailed me back the harshest, most mean email I could have imagined. I figured he would reject me but I didn't think he was going to try to hurt me. He said he would never date me again. He said a lot of mean things to me. about how he considered ignoring my email at first, but then decided to write me (mean stuff) for some stupid reason. About who he thinks I am as a partner. Flawed. Not ready to date. I was beyond crushed. I felt...verbally murdered by him. There was so much hostility and disgust in the tone. I felt so unworthy. So pathetic. I considered hurting myself. I know that I hurt him by breaking up with him. But I wasn't TRYING to hurt him. Clearly he's not the one for me. Anyway, this week has been interesting. It has been painful. And it has been eye opening. I was considering going to the hospital tonight. But I won't hurt myself. I am just so very sad. It hurts. Like, it comes in waves. Sometimes I'm ok. Sometimes I'm not. I'm dealing with a lot of hurt and painful emotions sometimes.